Sealed with a kiss...

Sunday, December 20

Alreirght I jus.t wanna find out what happens when I write a post while3 i'm completrely wasted..

Dont get me wrong., I'm not an addict..
I dont drink regularly. But whenI do, I make sure that I drink and smoke to the point wher I walk like a zombie and have to go to sleep cause another step would result in me throwin up my goddamn guts.

I've been listening to a lot of emotional music lately..

and by that, I dont mean the 'I slit my wrist cuz she stole my eyeliner' kind of emo crap out there these days.

This is some real music man!


The Velvet Underground - Heroin
It took a stoner to write it, and takes a stoner to get it.
Many of my pals didnt lioke it. maybe I should make them smoke some dope and try again

Radiohead - How to disappear completely
What''s a playlist wiothout some radiohead threown in.! This song is my absolute favorite from Radiohed.
"I walk through walls.. I float down the liffey.."
I want this one played at my funeral. and I MEAN IT!!

Coldplay - The Scientist.
You know., if you listen to one song continuously during a spoecific period, and then you listen to it after a long time, memories come gushing in..
This song is no exception, and it's just lovely.
and did i mention it's my official dope son g?!

Megadeth - A tout le monde
goes on to prove that a song doesnt hav to be mellow to sound sad.
angry guitars can be just as sad..
man, this one I'd definitely certify at their best, and the reaasonIm such a goddamn diehard megadeth fan

Sigur Ros - Staralfur
Sigur Ros sings in a mede-up lenguage, cause they believe words are not necesary to create beautiful music.
I'd call this track 'ethereal', cause it is.

othre songs in heavy rotation:

Alice in chains - nutshell
Katatonia - soil's song
Megadeth - The hardest part of letting go
nirvana - Something in the way
countinG Crows - colorblind
Denali - lose me
Wihin temptation - somewhere
Gorillaz- feel good inc.
Collective soul -december
Radiohead- Creep

I know im noyt making any sense but

what the heck!

Donnie Darko : They made me do it

Sunday, November 29

I'm a sucker when it comes to movies.
I have seen my fair share of good movies and crap movies, and there have been some truly remarkable ones (Fight Club, A Clockwork Orange, Dark Knight, etc..)
But this is the first time I'm blogging about one, and not without a reason.

I've watched this goddamn movie five times in two days, and I can only say one thing:
It is easily the best movie I've watched in years.

Damn.. it does stuff to your head!

It is difficult to classify Donnie Darko into a specific genre. Sci-fi, Romance, Head-trip, Dark humor, time travel, schizophrenia,. heck, I don't know! it's all there..

The film asks this basic question: What if the universe as we live it really isn't as we imagine it?

Here's the basic storyline:
Donnie Darko (Jake Gyllenhaal), a mentally disturbed teenager, appears to suffer from a variety of symptoms. His parents and sisters are concerned about him. One night, Donnie sleepwalks and meets Frank (James Duval), a man in a menacing rabbit costume. Frank tells him that in 28 days, 6 hours, 42 minutes and 12 seconds, the world will end. While he is outside, a jet engine mysteriously crashes through the roof of Donnie's bedroom.

Alright, that makes up about the first ten minutes of the movie. Thought I was gonna write down the whole storyline for you huh?
nope, not gonna happen. 'cause I dont wanna ruin it. You better to go watch the film in its entirety.. You won't regret it.

All I say is:
* Some really good dark humor
* One of the saddest endings ever.. truly epic (and unexpected!)
* The soundtrack is fucking sweet. Check out the attached video
* Frank scares the shit outta me!
* The acting is really commendable. unforgettable characters.. Jena malone looks incredibly beautiful

and the best thing, everytime you watch it,you find something you never noticed before. (did I mention that it takes a few replays to finally understand whats goin on?)

Check out this video. Gotta say, this song has really started growing on me.. beautiful lyrics and fits nicely into the film..


Just putting down some of my favorite quotes from the movie:

Donnie: Why do you wear that stupid bunny suit?
Frank: Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?

Donnie: I made a new friend today.
Dr. Lilian Thurman: Real or imaginary?
Donnie: Imaginary.

Gretchen: Donnie Darko? What the hell kind of name is that? It's like some sort of superhero or something
Donnie: What makes you think I'm not?

Jim Cunningham: Son... DO YOU SEE THIS? This is an Anger Prisoner. A textbook example. DO YOU SEE THE FEAR, PEOPLE? This boy is scared to death of the truth. Son, it breaks my heart to say this, but I believe you are a very troubled and confused young man. I believe you are searching for the answers in all the wrong places...
Donnie: You're right, actually. I am pretty- I'm, I'm pretty troubled and I'm, I'm pretty confused. But I... and I'm afraid. Really, really afraid. Really afraid. But I... I... I think you're the fucking Antichrist.

Gretchen: My mom had to get a restraining order against my stepdad. He has emotional problems.
Donnie: Oh, I have those too! What kind of emotional problems does your dad have?
Gretchen: He stabbed my mom four times in the chest.
Donnie: Oh.

Roberta Sparrow: [whispering into Donnie's ear] Every creature on this earth dies alone.

Cherita Chen : Chut up!
Ronald Fisher: Go Back to China, bitch.

Donnie: [to his mother] How's it feel to have a wacko for a son?
Rose Darko: It feels wonderful.

Donnie: [in a letter] Dear Roberta Sparrow, I have reached the end of your book and... there are so many things that I need to ask you. Sometimes I'm afraid of what you might tell me. Sometimes I'm afraid that you'll tell me that this is not a work of fiction. I can only hope that the answers will come to me in my sleep. I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to.


Play "Happy Birthday to you" on Guitar

Saturday, October 10

Here's a little something you can do to make someone feel really special on their birthday.
wanted to do this for someone I really prized, but it didn't happen, thanks to my shit life..

anyway, I'm gonna write a simple guide so you can call up someone on their birthday and play this for them even if you aren't a guitar virtuoso..

besides, its a really simple tune.

what you'll need:

* a guitar ( a REAL one, not the one that came free with your cereal box)

* a little credit on your mobile phone

* you should be able sing it without making them hang up (you can croak and they wont even notice cause they'll be listening to the guitar anyway ;)

Ok here's what it looks like:

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to dear name
Happy birthday to you

I've made a Guitar Pro tab of the song, and also a MIDI file so you can hear what it sounds like.
Download them here: Happy Birthday Guitar Chords (mediafire link)

check this link for help with the chords: The open guitar chords

hope this helps :)

Hopeless Self-justification...

Saturday, August 22

Where did I take that confounded wrong turn...

this is one of the top questions to hit my head during my personal hours of reflection. (read *lecture hours*)
Sometimes I think I've gone astray and wound up at a place where I'm not supposed to be..
Life is cruel, it gives you no lifelines.
You gotta think on your own (which is time-consuming., not to mention the hard work involved), or ask others who are as lost as you are..

The reflection process continues...

this place.. what's it even called?!
Oh wait, I must be the first to tread these grounds..
correction: the first of my kind...
for I can spot many, out of the corner of my eye..
shapeless shadows running and taking refuge in the inviting dark..
I try to count.. weigh my chances..
but heck, there's just too many
God, I just wish they dont bite...
...but I can already feel the blood leave my system

I get one of my Adrenaline rushes!

and I know what will follow:
"Hey guys look what I can do....
...oh fuck that hurt!@"

Yeah right, what happens around me these days seem to be way outta my league.. I feel like I'm some insignificant creature. *gah

back at the ethereal wasteland where my life has lurched to a screeching halt.

claws tightening round my feet...
that blind alley suddenly looks like a safe haven.
I dont know what it holds for me
but I'm not afraid.. I dont care..
yeah, that's what she told me..
"You don't fuckin care!"
I'm glad I didn't bring her along.. I need to suffer this alone
I don't need a friend
not that I deserve any..
or do I?
I wonder, as I ease my mind and take a drag..
smoke rings fill the air
this is my best friend..
the cancer that slowly eats its way through my bones..
my friend who's gonna put the final nail in my coffin..
my friend who can slow the sunlight down..
always by my side, like a burning torch
until the day that I finally cross over
...and become one with the earth
my sweet earth..

my own personal purgatory..

this was actually meant to be a serious post, after havin broken up with a really really good friend.. but crap, it seems I underestimated the power of the herb.
That explains the sophisticated words in the post that even I cant make out, and yeah, the unexplained laughter (as my roomies put it)
if you are reading this, know that I have nothing against you.. you are one of the nicest persons I've ever known.. but really, i think you are much much better off without a shithead like me as your friend lol


Wake Up Dead!!

Sunday, August 16

It's essential that I write here occassionally about Megadeth, for many good reasons:

1. They're the best goddamn metal band in the planet
(and a few other planets as well)

2. Dave Mustaine is God. He's just hated profusely cause he's bluntly honest.

3. Megadeth made me the Metalhead that I am today

4. Megadeth are the best metal band out there
(deserves a second mention!)

When I picked up a copy of 'Rust in Peace' at a friend's place many years ago, little did I know that I was holding one of the greatest metal records of all time in my hands.
The song "Tornado of Souls" off that CD was kind of an eye-opener for me. Really, I didnt appreciate the heavier music much until then, but this one kind of grew on me. I still hld this song responsible for giving me the special powers to fly with my head, and to air guitar like a psycho ;)

Well, now to the actual point of this post..

The new Megadeth album is due this September!

Death Magnetic is the new joke! haha..!

This is gonna be Megadeth's 12th studio album and is titled 'Endgame' and is due on september 15th.

You can get a taste of how the new material is gonna sound by listening to this song that has been out for a while now - HeadCrusher

Listen to it once and you'll know the new record is gonna kick some serious ass. The lyrics speak much for themselves, it's about a torture machine used in the medieval ages.
The first half of the song sounds like good old school thrash metal, and the latter half just screams 'Megadeth'! Everytime I listen to this song, I have this violent urge to headbang like crazy! Dammit Mustaine, you just crushed my head!

Personally, I think this is gonna be Megadeth's best work since 1990's Rust in Peace.

* Metal Hammer's track-by-track review of EndGame

* Dave talks Influences, new Album (Interview) - check out the part about Marty and about the Megadeth Meatloaf ;)

September........ Fucking Come Already!!!

Political Rant

Wednesday, June 10

It's not often that I talk about politics., even in real life.

In fact my mentality on politics is what Soulfly had when they wrote this song:

"Back to the Primitive,
Fuck all your Politics!
We've got our lives to live,
the way we want to live!"

uhm.. okay, we needn't go that far and eat raw meat and stuff,.. but I really think some of these politicians have to be dealt with in a very primitive way!

For instance, consider the goings-on in my own state, Kerala, which was so gorgeous that it's been called "God's own Country" for as long as I can remember.

Now, there was this huge scam that surfaced several years ago and involved 375 Crores of big fat money vanishing into thin air.
I dont know much about this scam or the men involved, I wasn't old enough to digest politics when it happened, and now at 21, I'm still not able to digest Kerala politics.
Thing is, one of the accused happens to be the state secretary of the ruling party. Now the case has somehow resurfaced and the Governor naturally ordered a prosecution, to get to the truth of the matter. and trust me, you can't even imagine the turmoil it's caused!

There's been widespread protests, claims about a 'Cooked-up case', and a Government carrying out a war against the Governor.
Even a harthal was observed for a day, to fuck up the common man's life even more.
so tell me, *Does this happen anywhere else in the world?!*

What I'm trying to say is, This Sucks!
The minister in question, I think he should have the balls to let them inquire, and he must prove his innocence in the right manner. if at all he is innocent...

Instead, what's going on now is shameless mud-slinging. It permeates our screens, makes our newspapers boring, and makes YOU look like dorks on the TV screen, though you hardly realize it .

And that's what I hate about the politics here. It's sick, and badly needs a reform. If I were to form a political party, I'd call it The Non-Conformist. I'd get rid of all these stupid traditions, get someone who can actually rule, and make the Finger our symbol, you know which! yeah.. up yours!

You see, this political stuff is actually real boring.. bleak... i think Pulp fiction was even funnier :(

I swear to God I'll never write another political post in here.. never..!

From the WTF file...

Saturday, May 2

This one should go right into the WTF file, cuz my first reaction on seeing it was :
"WTF Were They Thinking?!"

Maybe it reads "Plot for Sale"

...or even "Flat for Sale"..

but WTF is a 'Floot'?!

I googled it and found this:
Full-Lifecycle Object-Oriented Testing (FLOOT)
now, this is gettin' exciting!

and the image search brought me to this:

and eventually to a site which advised me to "Enjoy the site, enjoy Floot and enjoy life!". no thanks, I think I'll stick with my Marijuana, it looks healthier..
The site even lets you order 'Floot' online. So we've got an international tie-up going here it seems..

Another distant possibility that we came up with was "Flute for Sale"
But the meaning of it in our jargon is too profane to be put down here. And as y'all know, profanity is something that's NOT tolerated here... that's Fuckin' certain!

Btw, this pic was shot in our own very cultured and educated city of cochin.. Now, I'm not blaming the ones who wrote this ad, or making fun of them. I just thank them for making my day.. this is Murder!

In the meantime, if you are able to comprehend the meaning of this strange signboard, please let me know.. I'm dying to know..!

LifeUpdate 2.0

Thursday, April 30

It's been ages since I wrote anything down here, and trust me, I've missed it. I rarely got the chance to sit in front of a computer. and when I did, I'd just stare at this little white square for hours on end before calling it quits and clicking the little x button up there. I remember a time when I used to write here on a daily basis.. ah, the good times!

When I look back on it, the last two months seem kinda hazy, owing to my nicotine cravings and the increasing need to get wasted.. some of those days just reeked of bile. I tried to write a poem, ended up coming up with a one-liner, and on hearing that my room-mate called me a cynic. and i don't blame him..

but I tell ya, I'm not ashamed to be a cynic either. I'd rather be a cynic than be somebody's bitch.
cuz lately, I've been heavily influenced by the music of Megadeth. I don't call them cynics, but I share the same cynical view as them on all that bollocks goin on out there in the name of politics and peace. I call it 'writing music for a reason'.
I suggest that you go and read Megadeth's biography right away, and give a listen to some of their gems, you'll surely get inspired. or atleast break some stuff..!

Now here's another thing that kept me occupied for awhile:

Took me quite awhile cause I was on a slowcoach dial-up connection, but I'm satisfied with the end result.
Been listening to alot of Nirvana lately, so I went for a Grungy look.. I think this's how Cobain's desktop would've looked.

What else did I do with my time..? heck, I don't know!
I slept an aweful lot, and by sleep I mean the full-fledged 'out-cold' kind of sleep.
Got maself some sugar, another entry into my list of addictions..
and though I call it hols, others call it the study leave just before exams., and exams are round the corner. which means I'm fucked, literally.

oh well.. :\

Excerpts from the Hitchhiker's Guide...

Monday, February 9

The history of The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy is now so complicated that every time I tell it I contradict myself, and whenever I do get it right I'm misquoted. So the publication of this omnibus edition seemed like a good opportunity to set the record straight-or at least firmly crooked. Anything that is put down wrong here is, as far as I'm concerned, wrong for good ...

..and thus begins this confounded little book that kept me occupied for two weeks on end.
Now I know why the 'Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy' enjoys cult status in the world of science fiction. Here I post some of the memorable quotes and excerpts from the guide. Read them and you'll know why too..

Far out in the uncharted backwaters of the unfashionable end of the western spiral arm of the Galaxy lies a small unregarded yellow sun.
Orbiting this at a distance of roughly ninety-two million miles is an utterly insignificant little blue green planet whose ape-descended life forms are so amazingly primitive that they still think digital watches are a pretty neat idea.
This planet has - or rather had - a problem, which was this: most of the people on it were unhappy for pretty much of the time. Many solutions were suggested for this problem, but most of these were largely concerned with the movements of small green pieces of paper, which is odd because on the whole it wasn't the small green pieces of paper that were unhappy.
And so the problem remained; lots of the people were mean, and most of them were miserable, even the ones with digital watches.

In those days spirits were brave, the stakes were high, men were real men, women were real women, and small furry creatures from Alpha Centauri were real small furry creatures from Alpha Centauri.

And then, one Thursday, nearly two thousand years after one man had been nailed to a tree for saying how great it would be to be nice to people for a change...

The knack of flying is learning how to throw yourself at the ground and miss.

"What are you talking about? "
"Never mind, eat the fruit. "
"You know, this place almost looks like the Garden of Eden. "
"Eat the fruit. "
"Sounds quite like it too. "

On the bridge of the Heart of Gold, all was silent. Arthur stared at the rack in front of him and
thought. He caught Trillian's eyes as she looked at him inquiringly. He looked back at the rack. Finally he saw it.
He picked up five small plastic squares and laid them on the board that lay just in front of the rack.
The five squares had on them the five letters E, X, Q, U and I.
He laid them next to the letters S, I, T, E.
"Exquisite," he said, "on a triple word score. Scores rather a lot I'm afraid."
- yeah right, brevity as well as subtlety is the soul of wit ;)

Arthur: If I asked you where the hell we were, would I regret it?
Ford: We're safe.
Arthur: Oh good.
Ford: We're in a small galley cabin in one of the spaceships of the Vogon Constructor Fleet.
Arthur: Ah, this is obviously some strange use of the word safe that I wasn't previously aware of.

The Guide is definitive. Reality is frequentlyinaccurate.

"Ford," he said, "you're turning into a penguin. Stop it."

and my favorite one..

"Well, sir," snapped the fragile little creature, "if you could be a little cool about it ..."
"Look," said Zaphod, "I'm up to here with cool, OK? I'm so amazingly cool you could keep a
side of meat inside me for a month. I am so hip I have difficulty seeing over my pelvis. Now will you move before you blow it?"

go pick it up at the local bookstore, you won't regret it :)

What I wanna be in 2009

Tuesday, January 20

They say, "don't make promises you can't keep". Still, every human in the planet has this bad habit of taking a fresh set of new year resolutions every year.

I call it a BAD habit cause first of all you gotta spend loads of time brainstorming to come up with an original new year resolution, you know, one that you can not keep and still get away with it. Remember, you could've spent all that time going out, partying, and gettin wasted.

Unfortunately, by the time you realize this, all the new year celebrations will have ended, and you'll look like the biggest dork in the room if you try anything crazy a week after new year. Good luck.

This year I decided to do it a bit different. This time I came up with a list of all the people i like and want to be like someday.
Gotta say, this was so much more fun than taking resolutions (I usually copy down them resolutions from a classmate). I even invited some friends over to assist me in the job, which ultimately ended up in popping of a few bottles and a hangover that lasted two days...

Anyway, I'm back here now, SOBER, and here's the goddamn lischh..! *hick

Dave Mustaine

Don't know why, but this guy has always been the top one in my list of idols. I soo much want to be like him, okay, him minus the ego..
In case you dont know (which's weird), Dave is the frontman of the band Megadeth. I adore this band cause they're one of the few bands that have stayed true to their roots and played true metal music all along. Also, they are one of the very few who has the balls to criticize all that political crap goin on in the world. "Fuck you UN, this is what's wrong with you!!" - now there's a rebel!
Plus, Mustaine has the coolest hair in the whole planet.
Alright, enough gay talk for one day...

George W Bush (W for Wanker)

I've said this many times, and I'll say that again, I DON'T hate Bush. I just think he's too stupid to be a president.
There are actually two reasons I idolize him:
1. He's incredibly lucky - consider someone goin all the way to become a president with the brains of a nitwit. Now, that's lady lucky all over him!
2. As in "Beer is the reason I get up every morning", "Dodgeball is the reason I want to be like this biggest jerk in America's history". I wanna be a dodgeball superstar just like him!
Not convinced? Check out this amazing video of Bush displaying his dodgeball tactics!


I don't fancy RAP music much, especially these new generation rappers talkin about stupid shit like chromeZZ, grillZZ, how they shitZZ, etcZZ...
Here's an advice, okay, you are cool. Now go sell two of those diamond studded wheelcups of yours and feed two hunger-stricken countries! Wearin diamond all over you, AND bragging about it, when the rest of your country is dying of hunger, is FAR from cool. period.

Now, here's one of the three rappers I've ever liked (the other two being Dr. Dre, and Zack de la Rocha of RATM).
Tupac is one of those old school rappers who actually made real, meaningful RAP music. Call it socially-conscious rapping.. we'd like to see more of it in the scene.

Will Hunting

I know I will never have brains like this guy, but there's still alot of things in common.
I believe I'm like Will Hunting at the beginning of the movie, "a cocky, scared shitless kid", and I wanna be like Will Hunting at the end of the movie, which is pretty much the same, which is cool.
Coouldn't make head or tail of all that? click HERE.

Ace Ventura

The Ace Ventura series had Jim Carrey at his best, no doubt about that! If only I could achieve that degree of craziness, I could be the life of every party (not that I haven't tried to, I just end up blind-drunk and just pass out instead).

Amy Lee

I'd decided against including a female in my list of wannabes, cause then I'd have to grow a great set of... erm.. eyelashes! *innocent
Okay, now here's one woman I've worshipped for a looong time now. She's just adorable, check out those killer eyelashes, the goth look, the flawless voice, and that ability to make a song sound heavy or strangely melancholic at will.
No, I don't wanna be like her, I just wish my girl was like her! :/

That does it for this year's set of resolutions. I decided to post them here cause I have this nice habit of misplacing important stuff. Good thing I've kept these here, else I'd have to write out another set next year :(

College has started again. So there is no time for anything other than normal college activities now. It's a busy schedule this year, with a few new subjects squeezing in between the usual stuff. Here's the scedule (as of today) :

8:30 - 9:30 : Whoa, wait! our classes begin at 8:30! WTF!! most of this hour is spent thinking about this fact and 'cussing' the college authorities.

9:30 - 10:30 : the ceiling fans (with their wind AND noise) make it impossible neither to sleep nor to stay awake. more cussing!

10:30 - 11:30 : people are awake and energetic after the coffee break. So they exercise that excess energy on the surroundings. Some of the greatest music of our era was written in this manner, from our very own last benches.

11:30 - 12:30 : Now that all the energy has worn out, most hit their desks for an early afternoon nap. Others dream about the upcoming lunch-break.

- lunch & afterwards half the class bunks -

1:30 - 2:30 : The MMOG mania has hit our class too. Only, this time it's bluetooth multiplayer gaming between mobiles. There are many playing, no one knows against whom he/she is playing. but this is soon known when someone yells out a warcry and someone else yells out something REALLY offensive.

2:30 - 3:30 : We are one hungry bunch! and we just can't keep our big mouths idle. more f00ding!

3:30 - 4:30 : It seems most of the class are Paintball/Counter-strike fanatics. For now it's battle-time, everyone gets pelted with chalk. An occasional piece strays over to the lecturer and stirrs him awake.

4:30 - WTF! the class has ended and now we gotta head back. More cussing the college authorities for not extending it one more hour!

yeah right, deep down inside we are all kids.. you know, one of those nasty mischevious kids who just need some good spanking! xD

the blog gets his say..

Sunday, January 4

"...Alright, I've been in this job for awhile.. that is, ghostwriting for this jerk, now it's about time I get ma say.. This is the first time in months that I get to poke my measled self o'er the dusty dashboard that I call home. So i better enjoy this while it lasts. hmm..

Now to da actual reason I decided to show up: it's New Year! Everyone seems to be havin fresh new sets of resolutions, even the blogger kid has stopped ordering me around and is working on one of his cheesy posts, you know the kind, right? ;)

Though I love talkin shit about the kid, I actually like him. And I know he loves me the most..., okay, right next to that confounded phone of his...

Alrighty now, I remember the kid calling this blog, that is me, as CRAP! but excuse me, i beg to differ.. While I agree most of me is crap, I'm sure I've also seen some of the ups and downs in the kid's life, and I've helped him get through them.
So I believe I have every goddamn right to make a change in MY theme song. I've trodden the blogosphere enough, and the way I see it, life is made up of bitter and sweet chunks (for you humans. For us, it's just posts and hate-mail, In That Order). So I think a better theme song would be this one that we all love:

BitterSweet Symphony by The Verve

Don't you worry, there will be lots of sweet bits in here to keep you smiling. I will once again be the happy place that I used to be. After all, what would life be without a certain amount of crap, right?! ^_^

Happy New Year folks, and my blogy brothers.. see y'all again sometime :)